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Name: Tiffany ( Merryn )
Birthday: 5/31/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: I enjoy playing the french horn and trumpet. i absolutely love going to school(weird) and driving. I also love touring with the Lee University Syphonic Band and I hope to be touring with Lee University Campus Chior soon. that would make me happy.
Expertise: Right now, I am an expert in taking orders at McDonalds,but more importantly, playing the frenh horn, and loving Jesus. Who knows what other great things God holds in store for me.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/25/2004
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| I am getting ready to leave Atlanta today and go back to Ohio. I have had so much fun here this time around and I will definitely be making this a regular visit spot for myself. I enjoy my time here so much that I think I will move here at some point in my life, hopefully sooner than later. I get to go back home and spend some time with my mom for a week or so before I get back to school. I can't believe it's almost time for school again. I am not sure whether or not I feel ready to go back to school yet.
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| Here I am back in Atlanta and I feel like this is where my heart is telling me to be. When I am here, I feel so loved and accepted and content. I don't feel like I need to go anywhere or do anything when I am here. I can act like myself and my friends here love that- I don't have to wear a mask or be ashamed. I have so much fun doing mostly nothing. Today I went and got some new tattoos. They are on my chest just under the collar bone on either side. Red stars. The tattoo that I have always wanted.
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| I am back in Ohio and I am bored. I need to find something to do. That craving is really getting to me. I feel like I could just get in my car and drive for days, weeks, months, unitl I find whatever it is my heart is looking for. I don't desire love, I don't desire friends, I don't know what it is that I desire. I just want to be alone in a new place every day. I don't even feel like going back to school. I just feel like running. What is wrong with me people? Am I nuts?
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| Here's what I wonder- Why does everyone forget about everyone else during the summer break? It's like we live with each other for nine months and then we go home for three and completely fail to acknowledge one another. I would like to take this chance to officially say that I refuse have anything to do with anyone who pretends like I don't exist while I am at home. In fact, if you have done this to me, don't expect any sort of friendship from me. I would like for everyone who reads this to know that the people who I am closest to are the people who are real. That's why I was friends with people who were kind of crazy and bitchy and mean. I didn't like them because they were good people, but because they refused to put on an act or show for anyone. That's even why Odessa, the epitome of a nice, well- rounded friend that I didn't deserve was freind in the first place. I refuse to back down people. I have learned a lot about myself this summer being completely alone and seemingly forgotten and I will not accept superficial friendships. From now on, if you don't invest time in me, I won't invest anything in you. I am still a caring and generally nice person, but I will not make any effort to be your friend if you make no effort in return. Maybe this is something that only happens at Lee or in the Church of God in general, but I will not stand for it. I am pushing people away. I can't even say that I am bothered by cleaning out my friendship closet. Sorry if I offend anyone, but the truth of the matter is that if this applies to you, then you probably don't know me anyway. And if you do know me and it still applies to you, then see ya. I don't have time. Now that my rant is over. I am in West Virginia visiting my family. I am wondering where to go next. I am constantly feeling like I need something. It's like when you crave something but you can't quite put your finger on what it is. It's kind of pissing me off. Maybe someday in this sort life I will find it. Until then.......... here's to the journey. | | |
| So. Here I am in Ohio. I am working and keeping busy at least. Today is my Mom's birthday so I went and bought her some of the Dead Sea hand scrub from the mall. She really likes stuff like that. Anyways, I have officially completed all seasons of The L Word that are out in video stores so now I don't know what to do with my time. I actually think that this last semester of mine is going to be fun. I won't feel tied down to anybody. No "best friends" to worry abut spending time with, no rent to worry about, no utlities. The only thing that sucks about it is that I will basically be paying for somebody to tell me to clean my room once a week. This presents the potential for serious accountability hours. Oh well, I'm sure my transition back to dormitory life will be interesting.
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